Content Warning: Death, Loss, Grief, Suicide. Please proceed at your discretion
It comes to us all.
For most, it comes too early.
For some, too late.
No one knows what happens after you die. We have theories (and sometimes faith in one or more of them).
Your fear of your death it's intrinsically related to the fear of preparedness of the ones around you.
A Close Person
When someone close to you dies, it shatters your life in pieces. It takes time and effort to come up with something out of these. And even so, it's a different life that emerges.
The shattering happens to everyone around you who was close to the dead. Besides your life being reconstructed, the relationships with these are reborn without the missing link.
Grief makes you insane for a while. There's no escape. Learn about the different stages of grief.
You can simulate a minor version of grief by deeply imagining losing the person. But it's never the real deal.
When someone older dies, it's easier to justify. But it doesn't mean grief will be less severe. You have no control over it.
With every close person you lose, it gets harder.
Being present, or even may be made aware of someone's death, reminds us of how fragile our lives are.
Being made aware of mortality is infectious. Someone's grief can pass it on, in smaller doses, to others around them.
Our relationship with death depends on culture, values, and even the like of work a person chooses to have. It can easier the burden or make it worse.